GENOTHI SEAUTON

我好像用了好一陣子繁體字寫博。
因为两会有人提，这件事又开始讨论。事说大不大，说小不小。讨论里扯出的例子是最搞笑的。有人说爱字没有了心，是无心之爱，有个叫王立群的同学反驳说

有“心”就有“爱”吗？古人并不懂得“心”是不能爱的，真正能够思考能爱的 是大脑，因此古人造字之时为“爱”加上一个“心”是古人缺乏科学知识的一种 误解；今人还有什么必要以讹传讹？ 　　
其 次，真正有“爱”心的中国老百姓并不一定非得知道繁体字的“爱”有 “心”才知道爱。汶川大地震中自费驾着农用三轮车到灾区干实事的山东农民根 本不知道繁体字的“愛”有“心”，但是，他们懂得“爱”，更懂得“大爱”！ 相反，真正懂得繁体字“愛”字有“心”者未必表现出了多少爱心。所以，“爱” 字有“心”与无“心”并不影响我们对国民进行爱心教育。真正天天用有“心” 之“爱”字的人天天干着分裂中国，鼓吹“去中国化”的还少吗？台独分子个个 知道“愛”字有“心”，但是，他们何尝有“爱”中国之心？何尝有“爱”中华 民族之心？所以，“爱”字的形体有“心”无“心”，并不能直接与有无爱心相 提并论，二者不存在必然的因果关系。真正的爱心在才行动，在亿万中国百姓的 大脑之中，不在于“爱”字的形体，至少与形体关系不大。片面夸大繁体字“愛” 字形体教化意义是不切实际人。如果繁体字的“愛”真有这么大的作用，那么， 对在押罪犯只教他们一个繁体字的“爱”字，让他们具有爱心即可以了，这能行 吗？

短短几行话里，可圈可点之处实在太多了。“心是不能爱的，大脑才会爱”。不知道这个同学谈过乱耐没有，难不成真的都用大脑谈去了。有时候拿不准有些人是故意搞笑还是一腔薛宝钗的正气。

现 在好多话说的都为时过早。簡體字改革其实很见当时知识分子的功力，爱字的写法，虽然没了心，仍然很挺拔，是简化的一个优秀例子。简化当然会失去一些东西， 但是能简化到现在这个样子，当时参与的人一定都是一流的文字审美造诣。我有时候很好奇，当时简化是怎么要求的，平均每个字减x画，还是减40％的笔画。因 为这个爱字，减了和没减手写起来并没什么差别，只有印刷体差别大一点，数笔画差三画，占总笔画的25％。这就算一个改造好了的字，一个进步的字，一个为人 民服务的字。

上面有政治命令，下面就有实际行动。而且真的尽心尽力，做得唯美唯善，中国的知识分子，到头来都是一片痴心。

几 百年后繁體字簡體字谁领风骚那还很难说，历史上不止有简化的，亦有繁化的，如果不繁化，没有今天的局面。思想越变得这么繁复细腻，文字会反其道而行，不信 矣。文字改革是不是只是闲人的事儿也不好说。自古就有两类闲人，一类人闲下来，就想改变自己，一类人闲下来，就想改变别人。所有闲人可以都自问一下。不过 想改变别人的人，通常不会觉得自己是个闲人，也就无暇自问。

讨论中忽然冒出的5/60年代才听得到的“开历史的倒车”这样的话才让人触目惊心。80年以来中国文字语境潜流涌动，就是在自行愈合这种霸道语气的创伤，有多少通俗文学前仆后继，近三十年过去，仍然看得见伤疤。

元旦过了，农历年亦过了，平静真不易得。
今年要安心读几本书，莫辜负了命运的照顾。
第一本在读

Hirnforschung und Meditation.
Ein Dialog.
Wolf Singer, Matthieu Ricard
edition unseld
Suhrkamp Verlag


还有，一再提醒自己，学会谦虚。

又是看视频，看广东话版的凤凰四重奏，马德钟像极了w.g.q，高个子小眼睛，后肩有简约肌肉。英语叫shoulder blade，是个很好听的词。
我不知道为什么要看这个牢什子的视频阿开了头就不能停下。一直看到大结局才去睡，4：35。
tnnd!

I've been using this title 2 years ago, and I think today warrants the cry again.
The movement is just historical. It definately has taken the starch out of my stomach.
I have to say, there are many things in this world that I do not understand, and, probably never will...

madoff这样的案子，过几十年就会出一次，真是太阳底下无新事。好多受骗的都是朋友。
人是social的动物，所以需要有爱人，有家，有朋友。
张奶奶是不是说过，恋爱就是夸大一个异性与其他异性的区别，那么朋友就是夸大一个人与另一个人的区别了。
其实世人都是一样的，不过状态不同，表现不同。(question mark here)
交朋友的过程是一个socialise的过程，人在里面得到感情的需要，但是也给自己制造了行为的意识的限制。因为某人是你的朋友，你便看不见他或不愿见他的缺点了。
你轻信他，回头又埋怨他骗你，不知道任何快乐都是有风险的。朋友也是一样。

今天h. 去唱歌了。



开始的时候非常美。孔子说绕梁三日，又说三月不知肉味。音乐会后在落雨的
小庭院里喝烧酒。一年又快过去了。。。

Alex Widmer, CEO of Julius Baer was found dead at home last Thursday, many sources claimed he committed suicide, some went to the detail that he hanged himself.
题目太沉重，无意说多。Widmer的motto 曾经是“一切都可能”，人相信这些东西越强烈，受打击也会越大。
如果生命能重新来，我希望我能学会更谦虚些，更轻手轻脚些。世界轰轰烈烈，希望我不要打扰别人太多。

92岁的心里分析师老太太遭遇36岁的当红作家，两个女人在一起能说什么，女人！男人！
后来两个人总结说，女人应该少谈一些女人，男人，少谈一些自己。
english patient 里K. 说
"a woman should never learn to sew, and if she does know how she shouldn't admit to it."

shall we amend that to
"a woman should never wish for a man, and if she does she shouldn't admit to it."

Was watching the news conference of Hank Paulson on his Economic Stabilization Act.
It was noticed in the past that he paused more frequently than necessary. But this became extreme today. He hardly finished one sentence without stammering.
Has he lost his nerves?
A journalist asked him whether he would leave the TARP to the next administration and said he was set upon the clock... That's one of the few occassions through the conference where he relaxed and uttered a full sentence without pausing, I am going to run right to the end, and if you’ve got any doubt about that, I tell you, you’re missing the point.

that's the question.
i'm not talking about my own positions in the market.
I'm thinking about hank paulson's strategy. The market has finally lifted from the bottom (or one of the bottoms to be on the safe side) with the bank sector still bitterly battered. 20 bn loan and 306bn guarantee for citi alone is a very bold move. But this looks so inconsistent to me.
Paulson initially asked for 700 bn to buy bad assets under TARP, with some complication he got the money finally. It took him weeks to find asset managers while the market waiting impatiently for TARP to get kicked off, only to find out that Paulson has scratched the whole programme and came up with something else, i.e. to inject funds into the banks in return for preference shares.
It may not be that bad an idea, but the market is too nervous, too weak, too cracked up to take any surprise. So off it went south...
The rationale behind buying bank shares instead of bank assets is that the equity side of the balance sheet will increase hence improve the debt-equity ratio. Banks are left with more freedom to transfer this effect into more lending.
But, by giving up the original plan of buying bank assets, Paulson also gives up the only tool to stablise the market for cds and other mortgage related credit derivatives. The policy makers may well have calculated this factor in, but how sufficiently, and what disatrous effect would it have if the market really go to an unforseen extreme? Will the writing down of assets value in banks be so severe that they will refrain from lending even if the d/e ratio improved, say marginally?
The reaction last week was so pessimistic that The Economists called for a rethinking.
Just as all these unfold, the goverment rolled out the rescue plan for citi.

I really want to ask, wouldn't buying the toxic assets be more effective from the first place?

Paulson will depart from his position latest in Jan. when Obama takes office, he will have no replay button to make a different decision that's going to affect the global economy in such a scale.
History will be the only judge. And I wish he wouldn't have to eat his own words in humilation, as Greenspan already did.

这个本来是要写给bt装修房子的帖子里。不过写着写着，愈像写给自己的。我的大毛病就是
本来是跟人家说活，说着说着就成了自说自话。好在有这个自知自明，不去扰她的帖子了，写给自己吧。


一个房子里，最要紧的地方是卫生间，其次是厨房。

我以前有个朋友家里是殖民地时候的老房子，浴室很高很大，有30个平米的样子，朝西开得一溜细长窗子，屋子正中间一个浴缸，好些细小裂纹了。夏天傍晚的时候，太阳还照着，楼下的厨房里汤油正沸，浓香四溢，这边厢水莲蓬一开，好像在另一个世界。现在出去玩特别喜欢找老房子住，要找那个再也找不回的感觉。天天在柴米油盐的世界里，有那么一霎，离开了。

不过要一个大浴室来带领我们走出埃及实在代价太高了。how about a good poem?
哎，左代价右代价吾还是走不出埃及！

张曼玉说她把康城得来的奖放在厕所里。现在有个作建筑师的男朋友，大概马桶都是杜尚的。

Beware of the man who works hard to learn something, learns it, and finds himself no wiser than before... He is full of murderous resentment of people who are ignorant without having come by their ignorance the hard way.